Well, it's Sunday and it's been an overall decent day. But I can't seem to get my mood up out of the gutter. Maybe I'm exhausted from spending the last 3 weeks sick. Thank goodness I'm on the mend now but I'm just tired. I have so much to be thankful for but today is one of those days that I just want to crawl into my bed and not get back out of it.
My biggest worry on my mind right now is my mammogram on March 10th. I had 2 done 6 months ago and they found a lump but the doctor said it didn't look like anything serious, so have another mammogram done in 6 months. Well 6 months has come and gone and it's time to go back. The lump is still there but I won't know if it's gotten bigger or not. I know it's very tender in that area. I'm scared, I'm nervous, I'm afraid that I will get news that it's grown or something and I'm not ready to go down that road. I know thousands of women have to go through this but I'm just not ready. I know I'm putting the cart before the horse but my mind always imagines the worse. Fear is such a horrible monster. It feeds off your every emotion and freezes you.
Hopefully it will be nothing and it won't have grown, so now just to wait and see. I hate waiting......
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